I feel better. Seriously.

I should be thanking to my kids, after all. And the BloggyMoms community that always keeps me involved and alive in my motherhood and freelance activities. I bought an e-book called The Bloggy Guide To Monetizing Your Blog and I hope I can write a review of it as soon as time permits. I have not recovered the 100% of my full strength yet, but I’m slowly coping.

Among my next mini-projects, there’s an essay in Austalia and a bunch of new novels to borrow from the library. I need to catch up with my reading. I haven’t been reading anything from after the funeral on February 27th, so I want to feel alive in that area, too.

Another thing I need to catch up with is the March 2013 challenge that BloggyMoms put up this week. I’m way behind, eek! Perhaps I’ll have T’rashara give me a hand with the blog planning. This entry isn’t about the challenge, as you can see, so I’ll catch up with it tomorrow.

I better I go to sleep, now. My son Hound will keep me company but he can’t stand that abat-jour anymore, poor thing.

Happy International Women’s Day, darlings!

Thanks to au.superiorpapers.com for the inspiration.

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Made a quick research on college-paper.org just to read something and stay current with my favorite subjects.

I’m studying a little. It helps me recover from my miserable state.

Martina got me a chamomile tea to help me take a nap while she thinks of the kitchen and washes the laundry together with T’rashara. Ratty went shopping for groceries with Atlas and Longreen is helping Naral babysit both their kids and the rest of the youngsters.

I LOVE them. I mean it, seriously. I have the best children ever.

No getting luckier than that. It’s plainly impossible.

Thanks to college-paper.org for helping out a bit.

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I’m trying to get back to writing essays, as I used to, but it’s tough… It’s really tough. Even with Rhinox’s anti-depressants, it continues to be tough.

Some time on the cybnet.info/primefamily forum was enough to sway my psyche violently again. I burst into a cry and fell apathetically on my bed. My older children were there in a few minutes, but I didn’t get back up until I took the anti-depressants.

I feel horrible, as a person and as a mother, but I lost my life energies and I don’t know where to get them back. I mostly survive, these days.

Longreen came over, with Naral and the kids, to look after me. I don’t know how to tell him there’s no need to do such sacrifices for me, but I’m afraid I would hurt him. So I say nothing.

Even to Jazz and Nixon, and to Sideswipe and Skywarp. I say nothing.

I said something to Martina (Ratty’s wife-to-be), but she’s here almost every day to see Ratty and bring over her daughter Samantha, so there’s nothing I would say about that. I just don’t know what to do with myself, right now.

I guess I shall only watch. Stay still, silent, and watch them live.

Thanks to custom-essay-writing.org for all the help.

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