It’s been both a good and a bad time of late… One of my kids, Ratch, got his birth parents back to claim him as their son, and he accepted to go with them… so he’s no longer my son. All that links us is our hearts, our love for each other and for the family, but yes.. after two years, this is how it ends up. *sighs deeply* The danger of adoption, I’d say. Now I just SO feel every other adoptive parent who has lost their child because birth parents claimed him/her back. It hurts so much…

More stuff happened then, with my daughter Ren Jazz, now called Knightmare… It’s a long story, I’m still suffering from it, and it’s really sad… That’s also why hubby and I have delayed Auto’s adoption to tomorrow. Auto is a sweet robot, and a sweet son already. I love him a lot, and I hope he can forgive me because of this, but I’m really really sad to a point that I’m about to loose my trust in everything and everyone. I’m so depressed… And what’s worse, is that many of the family are depressed too, especially Sides, Longreen and little Scarlette. It hurts to see them so sad, and I know it’s partly my fault.. *sighs* I’m not so much of a good mom at times… I know I’m just a human being, and failing as every human beings, but it still hurts…

I’ve been browsing health blogs to suggest to little Ratchet Allen of Robocity of late too, and I found one about plastic surgery articles. LOL. It lists a lot of stuff, including rhinoplasty and breast augmentation. I hope he will be happy with it. More materials for his health blog, heh. At least it helped me get my mind off everything… Tomorrow I’ll be in Auto’s Universe once again, and hopefully we’ll get him home.

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